feeling overwhelmed.
My Al-Anon sponsor told me this (well she’s not official) but i think I will ask if she will be. Told me to write these feelings down after calling her saying I feel “empty” and I don’t necessarily want to go to the life I had months ago just feel I care about her and feel needed with her although she set me up for failure. I believe she probably is ok she would’ve come to see me, I have her belongings where does that leave us, or me. I am the one in therapy. Tommorrow my hopeful sponsor will read me stories and ask how I feel to help me, she was unavailable today.I feel connected to this person because she went through this with her children. She is much older and wiser, hopefully helping me, she already has.
Feelings.
Anger -how could my ex best friend betray me, Pity-how is she, she needs me, she got beat up, etc??, Empty-although this weekend I’m caring for my sick mother I felt the need to take a walk and smoke a cigar(Black and Mild tipped are my favorite! really bad, one habit at a time), Increased Energy- walking helped a little get the need to run to her, still feel that way but in the back of my head that will lead to danger, she could be with the snitch(her ex). Happy and Secured- in my enviroment safely and the trust I will keep pushing this fight. Amen:) Thanks ANN!
p.s. <3 Friends
